over burnt

This is the only place that I would let myself loose like this. I am starting to stone around occasionally. My brains are going haywire; my reaction time is slower perhaps to around 0.02 seconds. Almost burnt my hands over cooking a meal due to slow reaction. I still think i am not ready for a partner in my life; and I am quite sure of it. There was this time I really felt heart burnt while attending a tutorial. I really couldn't breathe well and my heart was like racing; my throat hurts like hell. I needed to inhale deeply to relax myself. phew, close call.